You may be trying to protect yourself by doing so, but it's not what you want.
It's not that it's bad or good, but it can make you feel even more lonely and hurt, so I'm worried about you.
As time goes by, I think some feelings will gradually change.
Rather than burying the feelings of loneliness, I think it would be better if you could find a way to live with them.
I think there will be many more encounters in the future with things that I want to cherish, things that I like, and things that I can put my energy into.
I hope that you will not deny yourself, but support yourself as you try your best to overcome the current situation.